feel so bad

Don't know when it has started, i feel so bad deep down inside me, lend me ur hand pls! But every moment i see the shadow in me, it makes me stand up once again. somehow it doesn't give full recovery but just enable me to keep up. Its just to keep up, this feeling is so hurting, no words can describe, how long could i afford to stand like that til the end. I has yet to be on the track of higher position and hope for it. I was barely maintain and balance anything which is within my ability, this is not enough, not enough in having guts til the end. what's lack? :S

有時候我 歪著頭 世界就傾斜
能不能 點點頭 就擁有一切
最美好的 都在等著誰

有時候我 張開手 陽光就穿越
能不能 握拳頭 就抓住明天
雲端裡面 畫著我的臉

全世界不懂無所謂 錯了無所謂
我要笑著流淚 我要放膽去飛
全世界不懂無所謂 傷了無所謂
管他誰錯誰對 我有我的絕對

有時候我 不想睡 不想太破碎
孤獨地 呼吸在 荒涼的午夜
太誠實的 沒人敢瞭解

有一點累 一點灰 一點點執著
有血液 沸騰在 清晨的脈搏
有個明天 為自己而活

全世界不懂無所謂 錯了無所謂
我要笑著流淚 我要放膽去飛
全世界不懂無所謂 傷了無所謂
管他誰錯誰對 我有我的絕對

啦~啦~啦~
夢想無所謂後悔

全世界不懂無所謂 錯了無所謂
我要笑著流淚 我要放膽去飛
全世界不懂無所謂 傷了無所謂
管他誰錯誰對 我有我的絕對

有一點累 一點灰 一點點執著
有血液 沸騰在 清晨的脈搏
有個明天 為自己而活
10.10.10

出發啦 不要問那路在哪 迎風向前 是唯一的方法 運命哎呀　什麼關卡  當車聲隆隆　夢開始陣痛 它捲起了風　重新雕塑每個面孔 夜霧那麼濃　開闊也洶湧 有一種預感　路的終點是迷宮 Xp

today got a special smile @v@ << like tis in the morning. a baby smiled to me,  it was so cute when his dad carrying her on hand. she was smiling to me, make my walk so different today than usual. her dad keep walking but wonder why his baby keep moving and was so excited abt? It make me laugh too.. I smiled to the baby.. am i wearing something weird that made her laugh?? erhh.. btw she was so cute! cheer me up. I wanna play v her!! hehehe

烦恼经常是自找的，放不下心中的事，才是烦恼的原因。放轻松，也许把烦恼减轻。

每个人心里面存有好多梦想，现实的，不现实的，都在追求着。一旦实现不了，就会心情低落。其实，不把生活看做竞争，当它是一场戏，很多事也就容易了。我们想要的，导演也许不想给，而且给与不给背后也许是有原因的。所以，面对一切，不管是幸福还是痛苦，得需用心表演。

Be3t TiM3s

    

 

18th BiRthD@y WowwOoow is such a special day...

18th birthday.. ahhhhaha it is today.. so excited, happy.. When i just had d first message of greeting.. its also my first alarm to wake me up earlier than my real alarm..heard the vibrating on the table.. wat d.. but quite cheerful, cos its my day. greetings and greetings...make me so so feeling kind of pleased. this is d first time i have two birthday cakes in my life!! omg.. so full.. but the thing left out is d candles.. hahha however, its nice to have 2 wishes that i can make. one cake was in college with friends and another was at homestay.. this birthday is more than a birthday; i keep eating and eating; its just like im gaining weight every moment today at my birthday. my friends gonna bring another cake for me tommorow and spaggeti for my lunch. really really can make me full full "fatty". today is so special, i met someone who also birthday today.. tis d premier moments i said "happy birthday" at my birthday!! so amazing and inspiring>>>

wowwwo..wat happen today consequently? today is so odd, bus strike but this day was chosen for it.. no buses for most of the areas..there was international day in our college, there were some wearing traditional costume. but i din't wear any cos im me who like to wear wat i usually wear. We were selling curry puff as malaysians and we were shouting like though we are selling in pasar malam. but the most impresssive part is that we are the fastest group to finish our selling. after class, we got gathering for ex-students "alumni" something like that. we helped to prepare food and it made me hungry. actually im not hungry, was the food which look too delicious. food food food is my birthday??? test and assign tommorow too... need study, study is also part of my birthday too? yeAHhhhhh so happy today @@ its true.. are u?